I read too much Elite Daily

            After graduating university I was not ready to enter the so-called "real world". So I spent seven months in Florida gallivanting around Disney World, which in hindsight was an extension of college life. I found myself after a few weeks on a very similar drinking and sleep schedule, despite my 60 hour work weeks. When my program ended I was still not ready to be a full fledged adult, and I struggled to enter this world.
             I tried many jobs and wondered why I still had not landed a great one. It truly perplexed me that with my credentials I was somehow no further than I was before. I did not feel entitled to that perfect job, but I felt that I would at least see a posting for it to know it existed. I continued to tread water until I was too weary to go on. Now in hindsight, I will be forever grateful that it didn't happen. I truly believe that timing is essential to every chapter and perhaps every event in your life.  You can't take the cafeteria approach and only accept what appeals to you in the present moment, because every moment leading up to the present had a purpose in the chapters of your life. I used to think back on things that failed and wonder what could have been, and not focusing "what is,"
          I recently gave a lot of thought to the reason I left Florida. It was such a dream living there even if I did not continue to work for Disney. I found the tropical weather ideal and the culture of the South suited me. I went through a terrible break-up, terrible is a light term in this case, I was spun out of my normal train of thought. I really felt like I had to go home.Shortly after getting home I was kicking myself for leaving. What the hell was I thinking ? I realize that is what was meant to be. At this moment, on this page, I was not supposed to be there. I would not be writing about living in China had I stayed. Furthermore, the I only hold one regret about that decision and that is this: I let something non-permanent and expired, stop me from getting what I wanted.To be truthful there have been other instances where I have put things on the back burner. I believe this to be a common mistake among 20-somethings, but nonetheless a part of personal growth. It can never be a guided tour.
             After a more recent incident I discovered that I need to be more selfish. Perhaps selfish is not the best word choice for this situation. But I do believe that in your 20s the world is yours and you need to be brave and take leaps of faith. As of lately I have been viewing these years as the last of times I can make impulsive decisions, go out on weeknights, and do as I please. All within reason of course.
          We all make promises to ourselves, some are broken, some we follow through on, and some are not our path. I recently reached this catharsis: I will no longer try to rush into this idealized "adult life." I know what I am doing right now will affect the future for the better, and being patient for once will be worth it.